Friday, September 28, 2012

My extraordinary, ordinary, everyday life.

The extraordinary, the amazing, the phenomena are daily glorified in the movies, the news, and on television. Our senses become bombarded. We become addicted to drama. The only things that get our attention are the big, catastrophic, knee-jerking events.

Take a closer look at your life, your everyday world, and the people and activities in it. If it were all taken from you in one moment, what would you miss? What sights, what sounds, what smells? Would you miss the view from your kitchen window?  How about watching your loved one(s) as they sleep?  If you were never to see that scene again, would you nostalgically reminisce about it, wishing you could see it one more time, remembering how beautiful it was, and how much that familiar sight comforted you in your daily life?

What about those toys strewn about or the baby crying because he's hungry or wet? What about the sounds of the city or country you live in as it comes to life each morning? Or how about how your child smells after their bath? Or when they come in cold from playing in the snow?

What about the way your friend smiles, or that little thing she says all the time that's not funny but she thinks it is, so you laugh?

Look closely at the ordinary in your life. While you're being grateful, don't forget to express pure, sheer gratitude for how beautiful the ordinary really is. We can easily overlook the ordinary, take it for granted. The sun rises and sets, the seasons come and go, and we forget how beautiful and sensational the familiar really is.

God thank you for every detail of my extraordinary, ordinary, everyday life.

Thursday, September 27, 2012

Grayson's 2 Month Picture! Finally!

Here is Grayson's 2 month picture.  Sorry it took me a week to get it up!  I have LOTS more, and some of Kellen and some with both Kellen and Grayson.  I will share those soon.

Saturday, September 22, 2012

Thank you!

Do you want to see a super cute video?  Kellen had already gone to bed, so Gray and I were spending some quiet time together. His Great Aunt and Uncle and sweet cousin, Kristen, sent Grayson these art cards, and he really likes them!  Thank you for thinking of us!  We love you!

Friday, September 21, 2012

My sweethearts! (Bird is 2 months old!)

On Monday, September 10, Grayson turned 2 months old.  He also had his 2 month well baby check up and his first round of shots.  Evan stayed home with Kellen while I took Grayson.  He was in such a happy mood when we got there...actually he is ALWAYS smiling when someone engages him.  Full of smiles and bright eyes for the nurse and his pediatrician.  He's growing really well and got a clean bill of health.

He got 3 shots total, 2 in one thigh, 1 in the other.  Thankfully he's got some chub on those thighs, to help cushion the needle.  I gave him a little dose of Tylenol an hour before the appointment to help a little, but I am sure it still hurts.  Those needles go in deep!  As he sat on my lap, smiling, he was given an oral vaccine.  He started to cry, he HATED the taste of that stuff!  Before today the only stuff he's ever tasted was breast milk, vitamin D and an concessional dose of gas drops!  I am sure he thought, "what is THIS crap!!!"  I got him to calm down a little before those dreaded shots.  I sat him on my lap (which by the way- he has excellent head control!!) held his sweet little hands and boom, boom, boom, done....SCREAM!!!!!!  He did NOT like that at all!  His precious face light up and he was crying.  My heart was racing!  I immediately grabbed the bottle with fresh breast milk and tried to soothe him.  He cried for just a few minutes and fell asleep.  I hate it when he cries, truly breaks my heart!

We drove home, Evan went to work and played with Kellen.  Grayson did really well.  No fever, no swelling, no issues.  Thank God!

Age: 2 months
Height: 23.25 in 75% (almost 2 feet long!)
Weight: 13lbs 3.5oz 75% (I guessed 13 lbs- he is a really good eater!)
Head: 16.5 in  95%  (Kellen and Grayson both have big heads!  Imagine the labor! LOL!)
Sleep: Goes to sleep around 11:00pm and you sleep solid until 8:30am!  Sometimes he wakes up around 6am, hungry, so he eats and then fall right back to sleep.  After he's had his breakfast, he sleeps until about 11:30am!  Such a good little sleeper!  Too bad I don't go to bed until 11:30-12 and get up at 5am!  We will work on getting him to bed earlier!
Best Moment: All those smiles and cute little noises!

Worst Moment: Hearing him cry after his shots. :(
Eating: You are eating between 4-5 oz every 3-4 hrs.
Teeth: Nope, not yet!  No buds either.
* Baby bird, you have a VERY strong neck and back.  I am contemplating pulling out your Bumbo soon!  You hold your head up so good!
* You like tummy time...sometimes!  You will do it for about 10 minutes at a time.
* You like to look at the black and white learning cards that your Great Aunt Carol sent you.
* Your seahorse will put you to sleep every single night.  We are co-sleeping, which I LOVE!  And you do too!  Every night after Kellen goes to bed, we smile and talk to each other, then I feed you, we snuggle for a while, I lay you on your back, play your seahorse and rub your belly.  You instantly get tired.  Then we hold hands and fall asleep.  I love night time with you. 
* I've started putting toys in your hands and you will shake it a little.
* When I enter the room and you hear my voice you instantly smile and look for me!  Melts my heart, bird! 
* You make gurgle sounds and coos.  You say, "Gooo", just like Kellen did!  When I talk to you, you try so hard to talk to me too and you kick your feet and wave your hands and smile.  You are so sweet!
* You will follows objects across field of vision
* You've started to ball up your hands into little fists and hold them together in front of your chest.  I remember when Kellen did this, its so cute!
* You've stopped taking your bink!  Kellen did the same thing!  You both took a bink for the first month of your life, then all of a sudden stop using it.  But, you both also started sucking on your fist.  You've discovered that your thumb is a good object to suck, so sometimes I find you sucking your thumb.  I need to get a picture of that!
* You don't cry anymore when I give you a bath!  You just lay there and smile.
*I've also noticed that you are beginning to blow bubbles too.

Kellen!  Mr. Bean, you are a complete ball of energy!  You literately run all over the place the moment you wake up to the moment you go to bed.  Either mommy or daddy have to take you for a walk or visit the playground everyday to help you get that energy out.  Bean, you are becoming a really good big brother.  I feel ok leaving you alone with your brother for a few minutes at a time.  You've never once tried hurting him.  Sometimes you will go right next to him and watch him, or swing him in his swing.  You really love Elmo!  Sometimes while I am making dinner I will let you watch an Elmo episode on the computer and you LOVE it!  Sometimes (ok all the time) you want to play with the keyboard and mouse and I have to tell you no...over and over!  You've begun challenging me a little.  Its perfectly normal and I get it.  If I tell you no, you will wait a few minutes and do it's ok.  I don't get mad at you.  You mean SO much to me!  I will always try my very hardest to be a good mommy for you because you are such a good boy for me.  Your 2 year birthday is coming up in just a little over a month!  I am so in love with you!  More and more every day.  I miss you so much when I am at work, I think about you all day long and I can't wait to get home to see you and try and steal hugs and kisses from you.  Sometimes you will give me kisses, usually I have to steal them!  Lately when I tell you I love you, you will blow me a kiss.  Your my sweet heart and I love you up!

I am having issues posting pictures, but I have some really cute ones to share!  I will try again tomorrow. :)

Tuesday, September 11, 2012

Sleep and an update

I wanted to document a few things since today Grayson turns 8 weeks old!!!  I will post pictures later. For now, I want to document that Grayson is sleeping solid from about midnight to 6am, he eats about 3.5oz and then falls right back to sleep until about 9:30am, he eats again, another 3.5 oz and then falls right back to sleep until about 11am. Then he is up for about 1.5 hours, cat naps, up for 1.5 hours, cat naps and that goes on until midnight. So, I think he is understanding that he needs to sleep for a longer period of time at night. I just wished I could move him from falling asleep at midnight to 10pm.  I really want to bump him up 2 hours, because I have to be up at 5am. I know I am SO lucky that I get 5 hours, but I want more! LOL!

He is eating on average 3oz every 2-3 hours, except at night.  He eats a lot more at night, like he is storing it up so he can sleep longer.  I was having a little bit of an issue with this since it was giving him a tummy ache.  He wanted to eat 4-5 oz at night but he was squirming and arching his back at around 6am and I could tell that his belly hurt.  I was giving him 2 oz at a time, but he kept waking up all night hungry, so I bumped him back up to 3.5 and he seems much happier.

I am pumping 5 times a day and averaging 35oz a day.  I am VERY happy with that amount!

He is SO cute!  Whenever he sees me, Evan or Kellen's face he smiles in response!  Its the best thing ever!  He is "gooing" and smiling and really trying to talk to us.  I caught some of that on camera last night.  The smiling in response started a couple of weeks ago, but now he does it every single time, and the "gooing" just started this past week.

Grayson has his 2 month check up (shots included) on Monday, Sept 17.

Kellen is doing really well too.  He is still into "sharing" his toys with Grayson.  I will set Grayson in his swing and Kellen will start to pile his toys and blankets onto Grayson.  Its really sweet, but I have to be careful.  I am able to leave the room and them alone for a few minutes at a time, but not much longer than that.  Kellen doesn't realize that some toys are heavy and can hurt Grayson.  We are teaching him the words,  gentle and easy.  Kellen is able to understand those words, but doesn't always remember.  I think that Kellen is doing REALLY well for being a 22 month old with a new baby brother.  I can tell that he is already a great big brother! 

Kellen's birthday is coming up!  He is about to be 2 years old.  I can't believe he is almost 2!  I know what kind of party I am going to plan for him.  Kellen loves Elmo.  Absolutely loves him!  So, thats what I am going to do!  I am planning a full on Elmo party.  I have lots of details worked out in my head, so within the next couple of weeks I will start getting some stuff together.  I think he is going to LOVE it!

Monday, September 10, 2012

Seperation Anxiety

It's been really hard.  I miss my babies.  Most people who don't have children don't understand how hard it is to leave them.  My babies were literally a part of my body.  I carried them for 9 months and then had a short 6 weeks maternity leave, now I am being separated from them to return to work.  6 weeks is not nearly enough time.  I am still healing, still bonding, still working into getting used to this new routine and now all of a sudden I am expected to leave a part of me at home.  I feel separation anxiety.  I don't want to do this.  I am sad today.  I will be sad until 4:00, because the moment I get home and see my babies I will be happy again.  Don't tell me that its a phase because even after I had Kellen, months later I still missed him terribly, every day, until I got home and was with him.  I don't know how some working moms do it.  I don't know how they can be excited to return to work after maternity leave!  I started dreading it weeks before I had to go back!  I've thought about furthering my education and returning to get my Master's degree, but I think it would be a waste of time and money.  I don't want to be a career woman, I want to be a full time mommy.  That's it!  That's what I want to be when I grow up.  That is what I am REALLY good at.

Monday, September 3, 2012

8 Years and 35 Years

Busy busy busy.  That is me!  Busy taking care of my kids, pumping, cleaning, being a wife.  Now I return to work tomorrow.  I am sad that I will be leaving my babies.  I know, I am doing what is best for them, but I am still really sad that I will be leaving them during the morning and afternoon.  The first week will be SO hard, but I know we will all be fine.  Plus, I have some really amazing friends at work who will help take my sad mind off missing my babies...well, at least I know that they will try!

This past week Evan and I celebrated our 8th wedding anniversary!  8 years!  Time has really flown by.  We've been through so much, and I am sure we will go through so much more together, but I am certainly glad that I've had him by my side.  I am very thankful that Evan has given me everyting I've ever wanted.  Specifically, he has given me unconditional love and support, and 2 beautiful babies.  Thank God we met!


I turned 35 on Saturday!!!!  Whoa!  35!  Not too bad.  I feel good, I've got my health and happiness to get me through another fun year!!  To celebrate I got to choose to eat wheatever I wanted to eat, believe it or not I didn't opt for Chinese food!  I was in the mood for a Philly Cheese Steak, yum!  And I really wanted some new shirts for going back to work.  So, I found the biggest and best sales and bought some new clothes!  I got 8 shirts, a pair of jeans and an AWESOME coat for under $100!  Yep, I am the sales queen!