Saturday, March 31, 2012

17 months of loving on Kellen

Lately I've been feeling the need to document more of Kellen's development.  I am not sure why, I've always taken tons of pictures and video's of him, but lately I feel like I need to do more.  So, that's what I've been doing, taking at least a picture a day and a video at least once a week.  Everyday I look at him and feel like the luckiest person in the world.  I am so happy that he is here with us.  On the weekends I can't wait to wake him up so we can start the day together and at night I don't want to lay him down in bed because I don't want to say good night!  I know most mom's can't wait for that night time break, but for me, I never want that break.  I guess that's what happens when you long to be a mom for as long as I did.  I couldn't wait to be a mom!  I love being Kellen's mom!  I wouldn't trade it for anything in the world.

So, what have you, Mr Kellen, been up to lately?  Well, you are pushing out your 13th and 14th tooth this week!  The lateral incisor on your top left and right sides.  OUCH!  You are so good with pain!  The only way I knew something was wrong was that you slowed down eating as much and you would cry for a minute out of the blue.  You don't cry a lot when you get hurt.  You can hit your head so hard and cry for a minute and then move on.  Doesn't it continue to hurt?  Doesn't it give you a head ache?  Geez, you really are stronger than mommy and daddy!  

You love wrestling on the bed with daddy!  Mommy tries to wrestle you too, but with my 6 month belly bump its really hard for me to throw you around like daddy does, so you and daddy mostly play that game!

When you turned about 13 months you figured out how to get off of mommy and daddy's bed without hurting yourself.  Last weekend you started climbing up on the bed by yourself too!!!  We were amazed by that!  Our bed is as tall as you, and you step up on this tiny little ledge from the box springs and reach high on to the comforter and use all your upper body strength to pull yourself up.  SO STRONG!  Your daddy and pap-pap are really strong, I know you get your strength from them.  You have the same little build as they do, you've got a Martz body.  Mommy is more thin, tall and lanky, daddy is muscular and average height.  You're a lucky boy!

You look so much like your daddy too!  I search your features for some resemblance of me but all I see is your daddy!  I know that you have my nose and lips, but no one looks at you and says, "you look like your mommy."  Nope, you are just like your daddy!

You love reading books with us, and you love your night time routine too.  You wake up from your nap at 4:00, you get snack, and milk in your straw cup, we play outside, then dinner at 6:00, we play until 7:00, then you get your bath, then you get your PJ's on, we have a snack, then we play, at 8:30 you snuggle on the couch with mommy and drink your milk, then we brush our teeth (you have this cute little game you play when we get ready to brush your teeth!  I am going to record it tonight!) then we read a few books (you always run over and sit on my lap when I grab a book to read) at 9:30 we turn off the TV and the lights and I sing to you "You are my sunshine" and then I tuck you in bed.  That is how we spend every night together. I love it.

Everyday it seems you do something new and precious, I will try harder to document those precious moments.  Mommy loves you baby bean!

Wednesday, March 28, 2012

19 Kids and Counting...

I TiVo'ed it and watched it when Kellen went to sleep and probably shouldn't have even watched it.  I will admit, I love this family.  I love the fact that they are faithful to who they are, they never change their outlook on life because of someone else.  I think the way they have and are raising their children is inspirational.  I will never be as religious and as strict with my children, but I do admire them for the family that they are.  The choice to have 19 children, that's the part that most people question and frown on.  I think that once you have chosen to live your life 100% to God's hands then you honor without any questions, without any interference what God gives you.  God gave them 19 children.  And if God wants to give them more, then 'he' will.  I believe in this. 
So I watched the season finale last night.  SO sad! I probably shouldn't have watched it!  I thought about it all night and it was the first thing I thought about when I woke up, which is why I needed to blog about it.  Michelle lost her baby at 18 weeks.  She delivered her dead baby at her home.  I can't imagine anything worse than losing a child.  I cried through the entire episode.  I just want to say that I am sorry for their loss and any mother's loss.  At one point I saw Michelle's eye while her baby was being placed in the ground and I could see the longing she felt to have that baby back nestled safely in her body, really touched my heart. 
No matter if you 'like' or agree with the decisions that this family has made, there is no way anyone could have kept a dry eye during that episode.

Monday, March 26, 2012

24 Weeks and a Comparison

Above picture: 24 weeks pregnant with Sweet Pea; Below picture: 24 weeks pregnant with Kellen.

I've been waiting to hit this 6 month mark!  This is a great time in my pregnancy because this is the point where doctors will try everything they can for my baby if (GOD forbid) he comes early.  Its a reassuring feeling.  I wanted to compare my belly to when I was this far along with Kellen.  I already knew that I am carrying bigger this time, but its really neat to see the comparison picture.  

How far along? 24 weeks and 2 days!  

Total weight gain: 14 pounds. 

Size of Baby: 12 inches and one and a half pounds.

Sleep: I am so lucky, I've been sleeping really well.  Its a night time ritual to sit back in bed, watch about 30 minutes of TV with my heating pad.  Its been great!  I wake up about 3-4 times during the night to pee.
Best moment this week: Evan and I have decided on a name!!!  I LOVE IT!  The only ones who know are me, Evan and Kellen.  I can't say what the name is yet.  I want to wait just a little while and talk to his name sake first. :)

Movement: Yes!!!  He moves so much!  It's almost constant, but even more so at night while I am relaxing with my heating pad and after I eat.

Food cravings: CHOCOLATE!  I sent Evan out on Friday night to get me a chocolate popsicle.  YUMMO!

Anything making you queasy or sick: I haven't had it much this week, but when I do I immediately take a Zofran.

Pregnancy Brain Moment: Believe it or not, I didn't have a moment!  But, I am going through the nesting phase.  I swept my kitchen floor 4 times on Saturday!!!!  I just want my house spick n' span! 

Name Game:  Since I couldn't contain myself, we do have a name.  But I am going to wait a little while before I announce it.  I want to talk to his name sake first, and do the Name The Baby game at work.  Since there will be a winner, I don't want any cheating!

Labor Signs: Well, I didn't go into labor, but I did have a really big scare last week, you can read about it HERE.  Now Evan makes me nap and rest after I've done a bunch of stuff around the house.

Symptoms: The Baxton Hicks have eased up, probably because I am chugging 100 ounces of water a day.  I am feeling back pain though.  The relaxin hormone has eased up quite a bit this week too, which has been really nice!

Belly Button in or out? It goes back and forth.  Some days it is in and some days it is out....weird.  I am going to ask my doctor about this, but it sometimes gets really tender.  If I bump it or brush it up against something it hurts. 

Wedding rings on or off? On

Happy or Moody most of the time: Happy!  And really excited to be having a boy!

What I've done this week to prepare for Baby Martz:  I am slowly adding to my hospital bag!  So far I have packed: Nursing bra, face wash, face cream, body wash, mouth wash, deodorant, hand cream, body lotion, chap stick, and the coming home blanket for baby.

Looking forward to: Wednesday!  I go for another dr appointment, then I start going every 2 weeks!!!!  I have a ton of questions for her and I can't wait to hear my sweet baby's heartbeat!  And, on Saturday I am going to Babies R Us to register for my baby shower with Jen and Samantha! 

Friday, March 23, 2012

He scared me.

I didn't want to say anything yesterday because I didn't want to scare myself even more.  Yesterday morning I woke up sick.  I had to take 2 Zofrans.  I went to work anyways, but I kept feeling cramps, yep, THOSE cramps.  They weren't real bad like contractions, but they were like period cramps.  At around 1:00 I noticed that they weren't going away, so I started timing them.  This was really scary.  I tracked 1:15pm 1:34, 1:37 and 1:47.  I called my doctor and they were a little concerned.  I shouldn't be cramping like that.  I could feel him moving around and kicking.  That made me feel comfort that he was ok, but they wanted me to drink a ton of water and lay on my left side.  If the cramping got any worse I was told to go directly to the hospital.  SCARY!!!  I ended up leaving work and going home.  I knew that laying on my left side would be a challenge with a busy toddler, so Evan took the evening off of work.  That helped me out a bunch.  I drank about 64 more ounces of water and laid on my left side all evening and night.  I woke up this morning feeling fine.  I came to work and am now drinking almost 100 ounces of water a day to be on the safe side.  But, that was scary and I hope that I don't cramp again until I am about 37 weeks, and not a moment before!!!!

Sunday, March 18, 2012

23 Weeks!

How far along? 23 weeks and 1 day!  

Total weight gain: 14 pounds. 

Size of Baby: 11 1/2 inches and 1 pound 

Sleep: This past week I've slept pretty good.  I've been doing stretches morning and night to help with the hip pains that I get, so that's really helped me.
Best moment this week: I can now see Sweet Pea's kicks!  The other day I was waiting for some take out and I could see him kicking me through my shirt!  Soon I will try and catch those kicks on video.  

Movement: Yes!!!  I can already tell he is more active than Kellen was.   This little boy moves so much!  Especially after I eat and at night. 

Food cravings: I was craving shrimp and grits last week, but it went away!  I started craving Chinese!  So, I got a bunch of Chinese food and ate it for 3 days straight!  Now I am craving cookies!  I bought 3 boxes of cookies yesterday!  And I am sure I will eat every one of them...of course I will share a few though!

Anything making you queasy or sick: I don't know what it was, but something made me sick on Thursday and Friday morning and again Friday and last night.  I was actually throwing up Friday and Saturday night.  So, I am REALLY glad that had my Zofran refilled!  I swear that medicine is a life saver!

NEW! Pregnancy Brain Moment: I thought this would be a fun new question.  My pregnancy brain moment this week was on Thursday morning.  I woke up feeling sick so it took me extra long to get ready.  Once I finally got to my car I realized that I had forgotten something, I ran back in side, grabbed what I needed, ran back out to the car and then realized I had forgotten something else...I did this 4 times!!!  Needless to say, I got to work late.  Thankfully, my boss is VERY understanding!

NEW!  Name Game:  Well, we don't have a name yet.  Every year the company I work for celebrates Laboratorian's week.  We celebrate for a week straight and do lots of fun stuff!  We play games, eat great foods, and the mood is generally really light.  My boss suggested that I participate in this game called, "Name The Baby", employees suggest different baby names for me and Evan to consider.  I thought it was a great idea, so hopefully someone will suggest the perfect name for us!  My goal is to have a name by May 1.

Labor Signs: None

Symptoms:  Last week I was feeling a lot of Braxton Hicks, so I drank a ton of water to try and get them to go away, it worked!  The only symptoms I've really had this week is the relaxin hormone.  It feels like I've been punched in my groin! And my lower back and hips are achy.  Other than that, I feel really good!  I have to say that I am SO glad that I've gotten my energy back!  There are some days where I am so tired, but instead of feeling beat everyday, its only 1-2 times a week now!  I think that is great being that I am chasing a crazy toddler around too!

Belly Button in or out? My belly button never stuck out when I was pregnant with Kellen, not once!  But starting this week it IS sticking out!!!  I am going to ask my doctor about this, but it sometimes gets really tender.  If I bump it or brush it up against something it hurts.  But, my belly button has popped!

Wedding rings on or off? On

Happy or Moody most of the time: Happy!

NEW! What I've done this week to prepare for Baby Martz:  This is a new question too.  I thought it would help me keep what I need to do and accomplished more organized.  This week I went through all of Kellen's Newborn-3 month old clothing and hung it up in the nursery.  We also took Kellen's bottles away so I sterilized them all and put them away for Baby Martz.

Looking forward to: My next doctor's appointment.  I have a few questions and can't wait to hear his heartbeat again!

Your little doll-sized babe is about to chub up a bit. His saggy skin will start to fit his frame as fat deposits fill things out. Beginning this week, he'll start to pack on the pounds (which means you will too!  About now you will start gaining 1 pound a week!) and by month's end he'll be double the weight he is now (though you won't be — whew!). Right now, your baby's organs and bones are visible through his skin, which has a red hue due to developing veins and arteries beneath. But once those fat deposits settle in, he'll become less transparent. 

Thursday, March 15, 2012

Almost 17 months later I read this...

"Men are faster than women at changing diapers.  Research shows that the average time a woman takes is 2 minutes and 5 seconds, whereas the average man takes 1 minute and 36 seconds! So that's a job for him, then."

WOW!  Had I only known!  Nah, Evan changes just ask many diapers as I do, so I am lucky that he plays mommy while I am at work and when I just don't feel like changing a diaper...but I thought this tad-bit of information would be a GREAT defense tool for those days when HE just doesn't feel like it. ;)

Wednesday, March 14, 2012

Free Pearl Earrings!

Want to know my secret addiction?  I am addicted to coupons and freebies!  I just had to tell you all that one of the blogs that I visit daily,The Krazy Coupon Lady , just announced that is giving away a pair of pearl earrings and a $10 credit just for signing up!  I got mine!  Why not?  It's FREE!

 Check it out!

Monday, March 12, 2012

Mad over the CRAP

I am mad over the crap.  But no worries, it won't last long.  I just need to get this out.  I LOVE my blog.  Its my own personal journal and a way for me to express my own ideas, my own thoughts, my own way of airing the dirty and clean laundry when I feel like airing it.  I thought WAY too much about this, and I need to blog about this to release my mind from the CRAP that I've dealt with over the past couple days.  I really don't want to get into any details, but basically just a little bullying as they shield themselves behind their "friends" type thing.  Too coward to approach me, but start a rumor in efforts that it will get to me.  How childish. On one hand, I kind of feel like I'm a bit shattered into different pieces. On another hand, I just feel ticked.

What I don't like? Is that I let some of the crap and lies that were said about me penetrate to my soul and that'
I'm a tough, roll-off my back type of chick. I've been through a lot, I've put up with a lot.  I thought this would disappear into the back of my mind just like all the other pointless crap.  But, apparently I'm not that chick since I thought about it too much. Or maybe I am softening up in my age.  Regardless, I don't like it. 

Because...words HURT.  Rumors hurt.

My husband tells me it's just bound to happen. Mean people are just that---mean. People who are unhappy with themselves. They pick out every itty bitty flaw you have and rub it in your face over, and over and over again.  They wait until they see you make the smallest move and then pounce.

Because the truth is?
I can look in the mirror on a daily basis and know I'm being true to myself, true to God, and true to my family. I'm happy. I have an amazingly incredible husband, gorgeous son, another baby boy on the way and caring family. I have people who support me, love me, and are there for me. I have friends who know my true character, readers who feel like they know me because of my honesty, and a God that forgives me when I mess up.  I am a mother.  I worry about my son's safety, his health, his happiness, what he eats, how much milk he drinks, what skills I should be teaching him, I don't have time for this childish high school drama!  Do you get it?  Do you understand that the energy you are putting into this will not make me lose focus of what I have to focus on?  MY SON!!  MY HUSBAND!  MY PREGNANCY!!  MY LIFE!!  I never realized that adults still behaved like children, I thought those days were over, well they ARE over for me, maybe not for the insecure.

So those lies, those rumors? I don't have to listen to--or believe. They aren't me. That's not me. I refuse to let others negativity bring me down. 

And? With all that--I decided to remove some people from my facebook page to protect myself, my family from all the negativity that this certain someone is trying to surround me with.  99% of the people I removed from my facebook page have NOTHING to do with this post.  I just need to clear my head. But blogging still remains. I think. After all, if you don't like what I have to say on MY BLOG or MY FACEBOOK PAGE, then GET LOST!  Oh, and the facebook strike will not last forever. Just until I feel better about the balancing act that is life.

Thanks for your constant support. Although I write because I desperately need the outlet, your support has been an awesome side bonus. 

Sunday, March 11, 2012

22 Weeks!!! And clocks!

This week as been so busy!  Evan ended up clocking almost 70 hours.  Today is the first day I've seen him since last Sunday.  So, this will be short and sweet!  I will blog about the rest of my busy week later. :) I have lots of pictures to share and a few videos too!  But as of yesterday I hit 22 weeks!  I've noticed a lot of change in my body so I wanted to make sure I documented this!

How far along? 22 weeks and 1 day!  

Total weight gain: 13 pounds.  And all 13 pounds are distributed in my boobs and belly!  I am feeling the weight strain on my lower back now.  A heating pad at night while I watch TV in bed is a must.

Size of Baby: 11 inches and almost 1 pound 

Maternity clothes? Of course!  I love maternity clothes.  They are so comfy!  I am going to scratch this question soon since I will be in maternity clothes from here on out.

Stretch marks? Nothing yet.  I don't like this question.  I might scratch it from my list and replace it with another question.

Sleep: This past week I've slept pretty good.  I've been doing stretches morning and night to help with the hip pains that I get, so that's really helped me.

Best moment this week: Since my blog is about my journey through pregnancy and being a mom of a toddler my best moment can include both!  Best pregnancy moment- that is every single time I feel my baby boy kick me.  Its absolutely the most reassuring feeling in the world.  Best mommy moment- that was when a very important friend in my life told me that I am a good mommy.  That made my week! 

Miss Anything? Not a thing!  I am going to scratch this question too.  I don't ever see myself missing anything while I am pregnant.  I enjoy every moment clear up until the end of pregnancy.  In fact, with Kellen, I missed being pregnant after I had him.  So, no, I do not and will not miss anything. 

Movement: Yes!!!  My little boy has been kicking me all over the place.  I've noticed that he kicks me pretty much all day long.  The kicks tend to be on my bladder and low to the right.  He is in the breach position, so those kicks makes sense to me.

Food cravings: This is my favorite question!  I am craving steaks and burgers this week!  Oh and shrimp and grits!  YUM!  I told Evan that I am going to order some Shrimp and Grits this Friday!  Can't wait!  If you've ever had Southern Shrimp and Grits, you know that there are so many ingredients in it, so it makes sense not to make it myself.  It is sooooo good!  Can you tell how much I am craving this?  Friday can't come fast enough!

Anything making you queasy or sick: Nope! YAY!

Gender: Sweet Pea is a BOY!  We still don't have a name yet!  We've been given so many great suggestions but we haven't officially come up with a name.  We have a middle name in mind and will probably use it, but still no first name.  I don't need to have it for at least another month, so hopefully by the time I start creating his nursery we will have the name so I can do a little monogramming. 

Labor Signs: None

Symptoms:  I know I am not laboring yet, but I can tell that my body is preparing.  I've read that while you are pregnant your body releases a hormone called relaxin.   Basically relaxin relaxes the body'smuscles, joints, and ligaments. It allows the joints of the pelvis to stretch during delivery.  I can feel this hormone preparing my body for delivery.  I can feel it all day and especially when I lay down at night.  I've started to feel Braxton Hicks contractions(BHC) this week too.  They say that BHC can be triggered by standing on your feet for long periods of time and if your getting dehydrated.  So I am trying to drink 64 ounces of water every day.  Some days are easier than others.  My BHC are really uncomfortable.  The pain starts in my belly and then radiates to my back, like back labor but not as bad.  I had them all the time with Kellen.  They started when I hit about 18 weeks, so this time they've held off a little more so hopefully I won't get them as bad as I did with him.

Belly Button in or out? In, but sometimes when I am a little swollen or bloated, it sticks out a little.  I don't like it when it sticks out, I keep trying to poke it back in...that doesn't work too well...

Wedding rings on or off? On and I hope they always stay on!  I never took them off when I was pregnant with Kellen, so hopefully this time will be the same.

Happy or Moody most of the time: 

Looking forward to:  Figuring out what we are going to name this sweet little boy! 

This week baby Martz's ears are developed.  Coming from a Speech-Language Pathologist major, this is VERY fascinating to me!

The hands and fingers are clearly visible and the nail beds have been laid down. The baby's fingers will close if the palm of his hand is touched. The tips of the two bones in the forearm, the radius and the ulna, can just be seen in the lower part of this image. 
Your baby's external ears have been developed for some time but for him to hear, the internal ear structures also need to mature. In the middle ear, three bones-the malleus ("hammer"), incus ("anvil"), and stapes ("stirrup")-conduct sound into the inner ear. These bones are formed initially from soft cartilage and embedded within connective tissue. The bones begin to harden and the connective tissue gradually dissolves. This allows the ear drum to vibrate onto the hammer, which passes the movement on to the anvil, and then the stirrup. The vibrations are then passed to the cochlea, a cavity of the inner ear, where they are translated into nerve impulses to be sent to the brain.
At 22 weeks, your baby's inner ear has matured adequately for sound to be processed into neural signals to the brain. The first part of the cochlea to develop is responsible for receiving lower-sound frequencies. As your baby develops, he will gradually be able to recognize and respond to higher sound frequencies. Over the next three weeks, your baby's responsiveness to sounds will gradually increase. At first the responses are slow and sluggish, but by 25 weeks he will react to a range of sounds by moving around.
In addition to being responsible for your baby's hearing, the inner ear also controls his balance. Small fibers within three semicircular canals of the inner ear are able to sense acceleration in any direction, providing the sense of motion and balance. Floating in the amniotic fluid is similar to weightlessness and, although your baby is very active, he has no sense yet of moving up and down.

Also, don't forget to SPRING your clock forward!  I LOVE the Spring time change!  I love that it stays light for longer at night!  I can't stand it when it gets dark at 6pm!  SO YAY for day light savings time!

Tuesday, March 6, 2012

21 Weeks

How far along? 21 weeks and 3 days!  OVER half way there!

Total weight gain: 12 pounds so far!  I kind of winced when I wrote down that number, but whatever!!!  I am growing a human in my belly!!!!  

Size of Baby: 10 1/2 inches!

Maternity clothes? Maternity Pants, some maternity shirts.

Stretch marks? Not yet...but I am sure that I will!
  I am still using my Bella B Tummy Honey Butter!

Sleep: Well, not as good.  I wake up several times to run to the bathroom and my hips have started burning.  I think that they are still a bit too bony for the added weight, so it hurts when I sleep too long on one side.

Best moment this week: On Saturday, the day I hit 21 weeks Evan and I were laying in bed and he got to feel his first kick!  We have a strong little bugger in there!

Miss Anything? Not a thing!

Movement: Yes!!!

Food cravings: I am craving popsicles, snow cones, icecream and cookies.

Anything making you queasy or sick: Nope! YAY!

Gender: Sweet Pea is a BOY!

Labor Signs: None

Symptoms: Pelvic pressure has started.

Belly Button in or out? In

Wedding rings on or off? On

Happy or Moody most of the time:

Looking forward to:  Figuring out what we are going to name this sweet little boy!

Your baby now weighs about three-quarters of a pound and is approximately 10 1/2 inches long. You may soon feel like he's practicing martial arts as his initial fluttering movements turn into full-fledged kicks and nudges. You may also discover a pattern to his activity as you get to know him better. In other developments, your baby's eyebrows and lids are present now.