Wednesday, December 19, 2012

Grayson's first food! (Pic and vid)

On Grayson's 5 month 1 day birthday I gave him his first taste of cereal.  He's been eating like crazy, watching us eat, smiles when he sees us eat, he sits up very well (assisted still) and is just looking at me like he was ready to try it, so I did!  He loved it!  In the video I took of literately the first taste he got, you can hear him going, "mmmmm" as he leans towards the spoon!!  I was nervous, but it went great!  I will continue to give him cereal until Saturday, but then we are going to try applesauce!


After the video was over I ended up making him more and snapped these pics.

Tuesday, December 18, 2012

Super Scary Video

Yes, I am way behind in my blogging, I know and I am sorry!  I've been dealing with a teething baby who is also going through a growth spurt, and Kellen who, well, is always running around non-stop!  I did tweak my work schedule a little, so hopefully that will help.  I promise I will update my blog soon, but here is a super scary video!  Shield your eyes from the growler! Also, this video was taken last weekend.

Thursday, November 8, 2012

He can roll!

On Tuesday night, I laid Grayson on the floor, on his playmat for some tummy time.  We do this for about 15 minutes every night.  I always sit right next to him and massage his back or talk to him as I try and encourage him to roll over.  Well, Kellen was dripping his sippy cup (filled with milk) on the floor, so I got up to put his cup on the living room table.  I was away from Grayson for maybe 20 seconds, I turn around to come back to sit with him, and he had rolled over!!!  He was laying on his back laughing and kicking his legs.  I MISSED IT!!!  Augh!  But, its ok.  I am sure he will do it again.  He was 3 months, 2 weeks and 6 days old.

Wednesday, November 7, 2012


Last night while I showered, I wondered how easily the voting could be swayed.  I walk in, they ask me my name and address and had me my ballot.  That's it!  I walked in there with my drivers license and voter registration card anticipating them making sure I was who I claimed to be.  How easy would it be for someone to simply obtain a list of names and addresses of anyone and cast their vote.  I woke up this morning and saw that Obama had won, so I wanted to see what others thought of the outcome.  I visited a webpage that I frequently visit, Alex Jones' Infowars.  And I came across "voters take to social media to report voter fraud".  The article was about what I had thought about last night, how easy would it be for someone to cast a vote under someone else's name.  If you want to read it, here you go. VOTER FRAUD

How easy would it be to know that someone is for what ever reason not going to be voting?  Maybe they are out of town, disabled, in the hospital, broken down car, or just doesn't care to vote.  Anyone could claim to be that person and sway the vote.  Why wasn't I carded!  I am carded to buy a beer, but not carded to choose who I want to run my life??? 

Monday, October 29, 2012

Happy 2nd Birthday Kellen!

Happy Birthday Kellen!  Two years old already!  Words can not come close to saying everything that I would like to say to you.  I look at you and tear up and smile.  You are more than I deserve.  A huge piece of my heart belongs to you, my first baby.  I remember so vividly the day you came to be with us, I can close my eyes and remember when you were born you came out screaming, but as soon as the dr placed you on my chest you immediately stopped crying.  What an incredible feeling.  Now, my favorite memories of you are when you wake up from your nap how you have those sleepy squinty eyes and want nothing more than to drink your milk and sit on my lap.  You've recently gotten more snugly with me and I love it!  Your laugh, oh my, your laugh would brighten even the darkest days, it is SO precious.  It reminds me that all is good, I love your laugh!  You sleep so well, most nights are about 10 hours.  We lay you in your bed and as soon as we say, night-night, love you, and close the door your run over to the door with your stuffed animal (or Elmo) and your favorite blankie and fall asleep on the floor.  You've done it for a year straight now.  And every night before I go to bed I scoop you up and lay you back into bed.  You still sleep with your legs curled in and your little bum sticks up, SO cute!  You nap for about 2 hours, and let me tell you how thankful I am for that!  You don't talk much, but you understand everything!  You can follow direction...when you want to!  You love to color, so lots of times while I am making dinner I will sit you in your highchair with crayons and your coloring book and you will color and watch me cook.  You also love the computer!  You like to click the mouse and all the keys.  I really want to find you a toddler computer for Christmas.  We will see!  I think your favorite playtime is when daddy takes you to the field to run and play, or when we go to the play ground.  You love going down the big slides and running back and forth between all the play sets.  You love being outside, dad takes you outside every day, unless its freezing or raining.  You like taking baths!  The days when its cold or rainy out dad gives you a bath and you have so much fun.  Now you try and swim in the water!  I am working more on teaching you self care, speech and pottying.  I don't think that you will truly potty train for a little while longer, I just don't think your ready yet, and I know I don't have the patience and time to do that yet.  When your little brother is a little more independent I will teach you.  You are so quick to grasp concepts, so I don't think it will take you long.  You are very, very smart.  You just don't tell anyone!  I have no idea how tall you are or how much you weigh, you haven't gone for your 2 year check up yet.  But I know that you are wearing 18-24 month clothes.  The pants are tricky right now.  They are usually to big around your little waist, and too long for your legs.  You are very good to your brother.  I am very proud of the way you have adjusted to having a new member in our family.  For 22 months it was just me you and daddy, and you got all of our attention.  Now we are splitting our time between you and Grayson and you have accepted the change so well.  You never try and hurt him, in fact, at night after we've read your 2 night time books, I tell you to give me a kiss, and you do, then I tell you to give Grayson a kiss, and you do.  Seeing you respond the way you have with him melts my heart.  I love you so much my little bean, my sunshine.  Happy 2nd birthday!

My baby's year...

 November 2011

December 2011

January 2012

February 2012

March 2012

April 2012

May 2012

June 2012

July 2012

August 2012

September 2012

October 2012

 You are my sunshine, my only sunshine.  
You make me happy, when skies are grey.  
You'll never know dear, how much I love you.  
Please don't take my sunshine away.

Wednesday, October 24, 2012

26 Hours and counting

This morning I woke up right before 6:00am, and immediately thought, at 6:00am, October 24, 2010 my water broke.  The next 26 hours and 10 minutes would lead me to my defining moment.  My wonderful son, Kellen was born and my entire life I knew it had changed.  I had a real purpose. As a first time mom, Evan and I ran a quickly as possible to the hospital, no contractions, just a wet butt from my water rupturing (a partial break, the rest broke while I was at the hospital)!  I was scared, but much MUCH more excited!  I called every one I could think of on that ride to the hospital thinking, hurry!!!!  26 hours later...

Monday, October 22, 2012

3 Months and an Old Soul

- bumbo
- laughing
- talking
- so close to rolling over
- starting to dislike tummy time
- tries to hold or touch his bottle
- melts my heart
- loves his brother
- size 2 diapers are getting snug

On October 17, Grayson turned a WHOPPING 3 months old!  Haha!  I know, he is so little, but 3 months FEEL like 3weeks, BUT I feel like I've known Grayson for ever.  The other day I held him and was doing what I always do, which is stare at every feature on his sweet little face and just felt like I've always known him.  I know, it sounds weird.  And I remember holding him just minutes after he was born feeling like I've seen him before.  He doesn't look a lot like Kellen, and he really didn't look like Kellen when he was born, so I know its not that I was comparing him to his brother.  I talked to Evan about this and he feels the same way.  I guess you would say that Grayson is an old soul.  I am so thankful that God sent him to be with us.

Diaper Size: Size 2
Clothing Size: mostly 3-6 month, some 6 month too.
Sleep:   I am still trying to get us to bed earlier.  Sometimes I can get him in bed by 10:30, but its not too often.  Its not because he wont sleep, its that I get Kellen to bed around 9:30, then I pump, then I get myself showered and ready for bed.  Then I feed him and usually by that time its 11.  I think he would actually go to sleep by 10, but I just can't get myself ready that soon after Kellen.  He sleeps non-stop until about 8:30am!  He eats and falls back to sleep within 30 minutes, then he sleeps until about 11:30am!  Such a good little sleeper! 
Best Moment: He is starting to laugh a little and wow, its a cute laugh!
Worst Moment: I think he might be teething a little.  I don't see or feel any little tooth buds, but he is a drooling mess!
Eating: He is eating between 4-6 oz every 3-4 hrs, but sometimes he will go for long stretches without eating, and then eat a lot at once..
Teeth: Nope, not yet!  No buds either.

Kellen is doing SO good.  I can't believe that in 3 days my baby bean will be 2 years old!  I am such a sap!!!!  As soon as I think of him turning another year old I tear up!  Ridiculous I am!  I am working so hard to plan a cute little Elmo party for him.  My sweet friend Marilyn is helping me make a few things and all I will say is that it is going to turn out so cute!  I love decorating and planning parties, so I've been on cloud nine lately.  I still don;'t know what I am going to get him.  I have one present, but I want to get him a little tikes climber/slide/swing thing that he can play with in side and out side.  He needs something to help him use up some of his energy!  Kellen has been getting more snugly lately.  Not sure why, but boy do I love it!  Look at how well he has stacked his blocks!  9 is REALLY good!

I talked to my Mummo last night.  I miss her so much.  I wish I lived closer to her.  She is so strong!  She's had so many crazy things happen to her in her lifetime, including double knee replacement surgery, she beat cancer twice, had a many surgeries and she is still rockin' and rollin'!  Still completely independent and strong.  I love talking to her.  When I lived close to her we would talk for hours, literally all day long.  I remember when I was a little girl it was so much fun spending the night with her, mostly because she spoiled me like crazy!  She loves her Great Grandchildren so much.  I send her pictures every couple of weeks so she can watch them grow, I know it bothers her that she doesn't get to see them everyday.  I know if I lived near her I would be taking them to see her all the time!  I miss my Mummo.

Monday, October 15, 2012

Significance of October 15

Before I had Kellen I never thought about the significance of October 15.  In fact, I didn't know the significance of October 15 until my friend, Kellie lost her precious and incredibly perfect baby girl, Maddie, to the silent killer called SIDS.  Sweet Maddie was only 4 months and 3 days old.  Born just 11 days before Kellen was born, yesterday would have been her 2 year birthday.  I hate SIDS.  I really do.  Its something that I pray I never experience and never hear that 4 letter word again.  It is a parents worse nightmare. But, SIDS is real and we can not ignore it.  So, October 15 is National Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Day. I wanted to do a blog for those babies and their parents and spread some information about SIDS.  I've learned that even though there are steps you can take to reduce the risk of SIDS you can NOT TOTALLY prevent SIDS.  Kellie was taking all the proper precautions and very sadly lost her baby girl. :( 

Want to see Maddie?  Isn't she perfect!


The day we found out about Maddie, Kellen and I took this picture for her.  The pink flower just for her.

When Maddie turned one year old I talked about SIDS.  If you want to read that post, go HERE.

Kellie shared the following information on her blog, Kellie's Blog.

1. Back to sleep: Infants should be placed for sleep in a supine position (wholly on the back) for every sleep. Side sleeping is not as safe as supine sleeping and is not advised.

The side position has in general been considered less effective than supine because it is less stable, and some infants rolling from the side will end up sleeping prone. The only specific and objective data in this regard was reported at the June International Conference by Peter Fleming (Avon, UK). He reported that the relative risk of SIDS when sleeping on the side is double the risk of SIDS when sleeping supine. We do not currently have any data on this question in the U.S.; nevertheless, I am in full agreement that we should recommend only the supine position for sleeping. That is, although side appears to be much better than prone, it is not as effective as supine sleeping. I hope this is helpful.
Carl E. Hunt, M.D.
Toledo/Washington D.C.
2. Use a firm sleep surface: Soft materials or objects such as pillows, quilts, comforters, or sheepskins should not be placed under a sleeping infant. A firm crib mattress, covered by a sheet, is the recommended sleeping surface.

3. Keep soft objects and loose bedding out of the crib: Soft objects such as pillows, quilts, comforters, sheepskins, stuffed toys, and other soft objects should be kept out of an infant’s sleeping environment.  Another strategy is to use sleep clothing with no other covering over the infant or infant sleep sacks that are designed to keep the infant warm without the possible hazard of head covering.

4. Do not smoke during pregnancy: Maternal smoking during pregnancy has emerged as a major risk factor in almost every epidemiologic study of SIDS. Smoke in the infant’s environment after birth has emerged as a separate risk factor in a few studies, although separating this variable from maternal smoking before birth is problematic. Avoiding an infant’s exposure to second- hand smoke is advisable for numerous reasons in addition to SIDS risk.

5. A separate but proximate sleeping environment is recommended: The risk of SIDS has been shown to be reduced when the infant sleeps in the same room as the mother. A crib, bassinet, or cradle that conforms to the safety standards of the Consumer Product Safety Commission and ASTM (formerly the American Society for Testing and Materials) is recommended. “Co-sleepers” (infant beds that attach to the mother’s bed) provide easy access for the mother to the infant, especially for breastfeeding, but safety standards for these devices have not yet been established by the Consumer Product Safety Commission. Although bed-sharing rates are increasing in the United States for a number of reasons, including facilitation of breastfeeding, the task force concludes that the evidence is growing that bed sharing, as practiced in the United States and other Western countries, is more hazardous than the infant sleeping on a separate sleep surface and, therefore, recommends that infants not bed share during sleep. Infants may be brought into bed for nursing or comforting but should be returned to their own crib or bassinet when the parent is ready to return to sleep. The infant should not be brought into bed when the parent is excessively tired or using medications or substances that could impair his or her alertness. The task force recommends that the infant’s crib or bassinet be placed in the parents’ bedroom, which, when placed close to their bed, will allow for more convenient breastfeeding and contact. Infants should not bed share with other children. Because it is very dangerous to sleep with an infant on a couch or armchair, no one should sleep with an infant on these surfaces.

6. Consider offering a pacifier at nap time and bedtime: Although the mechanism is not known, the reduced risk of SIDS associated with pacifier use during sleep is compelling, and the evidence that pacifier use inhibits breastfeeding or causes later dental complications is not. Until evidence dictates otherwise, the task force recommends use of a pacifier throughout the first year of life according to the following procedures:
• The pacifier should be used when placing the infant down for sleep and not be reinserted once the infant falls asleep. If the infant refuses the pacifier, he or she should not be forced to take it.

• Pacifiers should not be coated in any sweet solution.

• Pacifiers should be cleaned often and replaced regularly.

• For breastfed infants, delay pacifier introduction until 1 month of age to ensure that breastfeeding is firmly established.
7. Avoid overheating: The infant should be lightly clothed for sleep, and the bedroom temperature should be kept comfortable for a lightly clothed adult. Overbundling should be avoided, and the infant should not feel hot to the touch.

Taken from Reduce SIDS

Can I ask you to do something for me, Kellie, Maddie and all those babies who left way too soon???
Tonight at 7pm (in all time zones) please light a candle for at least an hour in honor of my friend and her baby.  She is grieving and if something so simple will make her feel a little bit better, I ask you to just do it.  You can either send me the picture on facebook, or you can go directly to her Another Day Stronger facebook page.  She would really love to see them. :)

Tuesday, October 9, 2012

I Want To Remember.

Last night was a night that I want to remember.  When I get home from work, Kellen wakes up from his nap and right before I get home from work, Grayson is just starting to nap.  So, I get about an hour of alone time with Kellen.  We play, we snuggle, we watch Elmo.  I love that mommy and Kellen alone time.  Then Grayson wakes up, we eat dinner, bath, play and get ready for bed.  Kellen goes to bed around 9:30 then I pump.  While I pump, Grayson sits in his bouncy chair smiling at me the whole entire time.  I get myself ready for bed, then I get Grayson in his sleep sack.  Then for about an hour, I have my alone time with Grayson.  I swear, I live for those 2 hours.  My hour alone with Kellen and my hour alone with Grayson. Grayson and I lay on the bed and play and talk back and forth.  Last night I laid him in his crib (which is side carred to our bed) and turned on his seahorse.  In the dark I laid there watching him talk to his seahorse, pucker his lips as he intently studied that seahorse, and reach for it with his sweet little hand.  After a few minutes the seahorse dims and the light goes out.  I wanted more time, so I turned it back on several more times, staring at little Grayson.  I did this for about 30 minutes.  I started to rub Grayson's belly and he instantly started to drift off to sleep, closing his eyes little by little until he was sound asleep.

Friday, September 28, 2012

My extraordinary, ordinary, everyday life.

The extraordinary, the amazing, the phenomena are daily glorified in the movies, the news, and on television. Our senses become bombarded. We become addicted to drama. The only things that get our attention are the big, catastrophic, knee-jerking events.

Take a closer look at your life, your everyday world, and the people and activities in it. If it were all taken from you in one moment, what would you miss? What sights, what sounds, what smells? Would you miss the view from your kitchen window?  How about watching your loved one(s) as they sleep?  If you were never to see that scene again, would you nostalgically reminisce about it, wishing you could see it one more time, remembering how beautiful it was, and how much that familiar sight comforted you in your daily life?

What about those toys strewn about or the baby crying because he's hungry or wet? What about the sounds of the city or country you live in as it comes to life each morning? Or how about how your child smells after their bath? Or when they come in cold from playing in the snow?

What about the way your friend smiles, or that little thing she says all the time that's not funny but she thinks it is, so you laugh?

Look closely at the ordinary in your life. While you're being grateful, don't forget to express pure, sheer gratitude for how beautiful the ordinary really is. We can easily overlook the ordinary, take it for granted. The sun rises and sets, the seasons come and go, and we forget how beautiful and sensational the familiar really is.

God thank you for every detail of my extraordinary, ordinary, everyday life.

Thursday, September 27, 2012

Grayson's 2 Month Picture! Finally!

Here is Grayson's 2 month picture.  Sorry it took me a week to get it up!  I have LOTS more, and some of Kellen and some with both Kellen and Grayson.  I will share those soon.

Saturday, September 22, 2012

Thank you!

Do you want to see a super cute video?  Kellen had already gone to bed, so Gray and I were spending some quiet time together. His Great Aunt and Uncle and sweet cousin, Kristen, sent Grayson these art cards, and he really likes them!  Thank you for thinking of us!  We love you!

Friday, September 21, 2012

My sweethearts! (Bird is 2 months old!)

On Monday, September 10, Grayson turned 2 months old.  He also had his 2 month well baby check up and his first round of shots.  Evan stayed home with Kellen while I took Grayson.  He was in such a happy mood when we got there...actually he is ALWAYS smiling when someone engages him.  Full of smiles and bright eyes for the nurse and his pediatrician.  He's growing really well and got a clean bill of health.

He got 3 shots total, 2 in one thigh, 1 in the other.  Thankfully he's got some chub on those thighs, to help cushion the needle.  I gave him a little dose of Tylenol an hour before the appointment to help a little, but I am sure it still hurts.  Those needles go in deep!  As he sat on my lap, smiling, he was given an oral vaccine.  He started to cry, he HATED the taste of that stuff!  Before today the only stuff he's ever tasted was breast milk, vitamin D and an concessional dose of gas drops!  I am sure he thought, "what is THIS crap!!!"  I got him to calm down a little before those dreaded shots.  I sat him on my lap (which by the way- he has excellent head control!!) held his sweet little hands and boom, boom, boom, done....SCREAM!!!!!!  He did NOT like that at all!  His precious face light up and he was crying.  My heart was racing!  I immediately grabbed the bottle with fresh breast milk and tried to soothe him.  He cried for just a few minutes and fell asleep.  I hate it when he cries, truly breaks my heart!

We drove home, Evan went to work and played with Kellen.  Grayson did really well.  No fever, no swelling, no issues.  Thank God!

Age: 2 months
Height: 23.25 in 75% (almost 2 feet long!)
Weight: 13lbs 3.5oz 75% (I guessed 13 lbs- he is a really good eater!)
Head: 16.5 in  95%  (Kellen and Grayson both have big heads!  Imagine the labor! LOL!)
Sleep: Goes to sleep around 11:00pm and you sleep solid until 8:30am!  Sometimes he wakes up around 6am, hungry, so he eats and then fall right back to sleep.  After he's had his breakfast, he sleeps until about 11:30am!  Such a good little sleeper!  Too bad I don't go to bed until 11:30-12 and get up at 5am!  We will work on getting him to bed earlier!
Best Moment: All those smiles and cute little noises!

Worst Moment: Hearing him cry after his shots. :(
Eating: You are eating between 4-5 oz every 3-4 hrs.
Teeth: Nope, not yet!  No buds either.
* Baby bird, you have a VERY strong neck and back.  I am contemplating pulling out your Bumbo soon!  You hold your head up so good!
* You like tummy time...sometimes!  You will do it for about 10 minutes at a time.
* You like to look at the black and white learning cards that your Great Aunt Carol sent you.
* Your seahorse will put you to sleep every single night.  We are co-sleeping, which I LOVE!  And you do too!  Every night after Kellen goes to bed, we smile and talk to each other, then I feed you, we snuggle for a while, I lay you on your back, play your seahorse and rub your belly.  You instantly get tired.  Then we hold hands and fall asleep.  I love night time with you. 
* I've started putting toys in your hands and you will shake it a little.
* When I enter the room and you hear my voice you instantly smile and look for me!  Melts my heart, bird! 
* You make gurgle sounds and coos.  You say, "Gooo", just like Kellen did!  When I talk to you, you try so hard to talk to me too and you kick your feet and wave your hands and smile.  You are so sweet!
* You will follows objects across field of vision
* You've started to ball up your hands into little fists and hold them together in front of your chest.  I remember when Kellen did this, its so cute!
* You've stopped taking your bink!  Kellen did the same thing!  You both took a bink for the first month of your life, then all of a sudden stop using it.  But, you both also started sucking on your fist.  You've discovered that your thumb is a good object to suck, so sometimes I find you sucking your thumb.  I need to get a picture of that!
* You don't cry anymore when I give you a bath!  You just lay there and smile.
*I've also noticed that you are beginning to blow bubbles too.

Kellen!  Mr. Bean, you are a complete ball of energy!  You literately run all over the place the moment you wake up to the moment you go to bed.  Either mommy or daddy have to take you for a walk or visit the playground everyday to help you get that energy out.  Bean, you are becoming a really good big brother.  I feel ok leaving you alone with your brother for a few minutes at a time.  You've never once tried hurting him.  Sometimes you will go right next to him and watch him, or swing him in his swing.  You really love Elmo!  Sometimes while I am making dinner I will let you watch an Elmo episode on the computer and you LOVE it!  Sometimes (ok all the time) you want to play with the keyboard and mouse and I have to tell you no...over and over!  You've begun challenging me a little.  Its perfectly normal and I get it.  If I tell you no, you will wait a few minutes and do it's ok.  I don't get mad at you.  You mean SO much to me!  I will always try my very hardest to be a good mommy for you because you are such a good boy for me.  Your 2 year birthday is coming up in just a little over a month!  I am so in love with you!  More and more every day.  I miss you so much when I am at work, I think about you all day long and I can't wait to get home to see you and try and steal hugs and kisses from you.  Sometimes you will give me kisses, usually I have to steal them!  Lately when I tell you I love you, you will blow me a kiss.  Your my sweet heart and I love you up!

I am having issues posting pictures, but I have some really cute ones to share!  I will try again tomorrow. :)

Tuesday, September 11, 2012

Sleep and an update

I wanted to document a few things since today Grayson turns 8 weeks old!!!  I will post pictures later. For now, I want to document that Grayson is sleeping solid from about midnight to 6am, he eats about 3.5oz and then falls right back to sleep until about 9:30am, he eats again, another 3.5 oz and then falls right back to sleep until about 11am. Then he is up for about 1.5 hours, cat naps, up for 1.5 hours, cat naps and that goes on until midnight. So, I think he is understanding that he needs to sleep for a longer period of time at night. I just wished I could move him from falling asleep at midnight to 10pm.  I really want to bump him up 2 hours, because I have to be up at 5am. I know I am SO lucky that I get 5 hours, but I want more! LOL!

He is eating on average 3oz every 2-3 hours, except at night.  He eats a lot more at night, like he is storing it up so he can sleep longer.  I was having a little bit of an issue with this since it was giving him a tummy ache.  He wanted to eat 4-5 oz at night but he was squirming and arching his back at around 6am and I could tell that his belly hurt.  I was giving him 2 oz at a time, but he kept waking up all night hungry, so I bumped him back up to 3.5 and he seems much happier.

I am pumping 5 times a day and averaging 35oz a day.  I am VERY happy with that amount!

He is SO cute!  Whenever he sees me, Evan or Kellen's face he smiles in response!  Its the best thing ever!  He is "gooing" and smiling and really trying to talk to us.  I caught some of that on camera last night.  The smiling in response started a couple of weeks ago, but now he does it every single time, and the "gooing" just started this past week.

Grayson has his 2 month check up (shots included) on Monday, Sept 17.

Kellen is doing really well too.  He is still into "sharing" his toys with Grayson.  I will set Grayson in his swing and Kellen will start to pile his toys and blankets onto Grayson.  Its really sweet, but I have to be careful.  I am able to leave the room and them alone for a few minutes at a time, but not much longer than that.  Kellen doesn't realize that some toys are heavy and can hurt Grayson.  We are teaching him the words,  gentle and easy.  Kellen is able to understand those words, but doesn't always remember.  I think that Kellen is doing REALLY well for being a 22 month old with a new baby brother.  I can tell that he is already a great big brother! 

Kellen's birthday is coming up!  He is about to be 2 years old.  I can't believe he is almost 2!  I know what kind of party I am going to plan for him.  Kellen loves Elmo.  Absolutely loves him!  So, thats what I am going to do!  I am planning a full on Elmo party.  I have lots of details worked out in my head, so within the next couple of weeks I will start getting some stuff together.  I think he is going to LOVE it!

Monday, September 10, 2012

Seperation Anxiety

It's been really hard.  I miss my babies.  Most people who don't have children don't understand how hard it is to leave them.  My babies were literally a part of my body.  I carried them for 9 months and then had a short 6 weeks maternity leave, now I am being separated from them to return to work.  6 weeks is not nearly enough time.  I am still healing, still bonding, still working into getting used to this new routine and now all of a sudden I am expected to leave a part of me at home.  I feel separation anxiety.  I don't want to do this.  I am sad today.  I will be sad until 4:00, because the moment I get home and see my babies I will be happy again.  Don't tell me that its a phase because even after I had Kellen, months later I still missed him terribly, every day, until I got home and was with him.  I don't know how some working moms do it.  I don't know how they can be excited to return to work after maternity leave!  I started dreading it weeks before I had to go back!  I've thought about furthering my education and returning to get my Master's degree, but I think it would be a waste of time and money.  I don't want to be a career woman, I want to be a full time mommy.  That's it!  That's what I want to be when I grow up.  That is what I am REALLY good at.

Monday, September 3, 2012

8 Years and 35 Years

Busy busy busy.  That is me!  Busy taking care of my kids, pumping, cleaning, being a wife.  Now I return to work tomorrow.  I am sad that I will be leaving my babies.  I know, I am doing what is best for them, but I am still really sad that I will be leaving them during the morning and afternoon.  The first week will be SO hard, but I know we will all be fine.  Plus, I have some really amazing friends at work who will help take my sad mind off missing my babies...well, at least I know that they will try!

This past week Evan and I celebrated our 8th wedding anniversary!  8 years!  Time has really flown by.  We've been through so much, and I am sure we will go through so much more together, but I am certainly glad that I've had him by my side.  I am very thankful that Evan has given me everyting I've ever wanted.  Specifically, he has given me unconditional love and support, and 2 beautiful babies.  Thank God we met!


I turned 35 on Saturday!!!!  Whoa!  35!  Not too bad.  I feel good, I've got my health and happiness to get me through another fun year!!  To celebrate I got to choose to eat wheatever I wanted to eat, believe it or not I didn't opt for Chinese food!  I was in the mood for a Philly Cheese Steak, yum!  And I really wanted some new shirts for going back to work.  So, I found the biggest and best sales and bought some new clothes!  I got 8 shirts, a pair of jeans and an AWESOME coat for under $100!  Yep, I am the sales queen!

Monday, August 20, 2012

1 Month Old and Similarities...

Grayson turned one whole month old on August 17, 3 days ago.  We didn't do much to celebrate, but I did take a ton of pictures and sang "Happy one month birthday" to him.  He is changing so much every day.  Seeing those changes makes me happy yet sad too.  Like, the baby fuzz on his arms is going away, and the dry skin that all newborns have on their feet and hands are all gone.  I know its stupid, but its those little details that I try so hard not to forget.  Having a newborn is amazing and it doesn't last very long.

Grayson is not able to wear any newborn stuff anymore, well, he actually outgrew his newborn stuff a while ago but I insisted on stuffing him in a few special outfits, he just HAD to wear some of it just once!!!  So we've moved on to 0-3, or 3 month outfits.  His size 1 diapers are getting too snug on him too.  Just yesterday I bought size 2 Pampers for him!  We have a lot of size ones left, but I don't think we will be using them!

A lot of people are asking me if I think that Grayson and Kellen look alike.  My first thought is, no.  I dont think they look too much alike.  I mean, its obvious that they are brothers, but as soon as Kellen was born, he looked like Evan.  Grayson has always looked like me.  I found a picture of Kellen and Grayson at around the same age, Kellen was 7 weeks old, and Grayson was about 2.5 weeks old.  What do you think?  Do they look alike?


 I don't know.  I see similarities, but I think they are very different too.  I do know that I have the cutest little baby brothers EVER!  I will try and take some more comparison pics since they boys are about a month different in these pics.

Grayson is sleeping so well now!  He eats about 4 oz at midnight, then wakes up around 5am and eats about 3.5 oz, falls right back to sleep and then wakes up around 8am and eats just a little, falls right back to sleep then eats about 2 oz, then sleeps until 11 and eats about 3 oz, sleeps again until about 2pm, then he is up playing until about 4pm, eats another 3 oz and sleeps until he smells dinner.  He literately wakes up as soon as he smells dinner!  He eats another 3 oz and up at 6:30pm-8pm, then I let him sleep from 8pm-9pm,he gets a bath and we do our night time ritual.  I make him stay up until midnight when he gets his midnight feeding.  Its working.

A few times he has reached for a toy when we're playing and he's getting used to tummy time.  He spends about 10-15 minutes on his tummy before he starts to get frustrated with it.  I still call him baby bird because he tries to eat my mouth and always has his mouth open waiting to be fed.  I wish I knew what he weighs right now!  He is doing so well, he doesn't have to go for his next check up until he is 2 months old.  If I had to guess I would say he weighs 12 lbs.  He still does the rooting reflex and let me tell you, I LOVE LOVE LOVE IT!!!! 

Take a look at this baby's hair!!!  He rocks the fauxhawk better than anyone I know!!!

 But Kellen has those eyes!  What a GORGEOUS Kellen we have!

Surprise!  I am 1 month old!

G is for Grayson!
My goodness do I love my boys!!!  They make everything ok. :)